Blazing Words: For The First Time

For the first time

I know 

That a pretty picture

Doesn't ease the pain

Pretty things

Don't fill up the soul

When it's void of happiness and joy

I now know

That the things I've always wanted in life

Can never make up for any pain and sorrow

And will never substitute joy and peace

That sometimes the road to the top

Isn't just rough

It's ravaged with the worst kind of people

Ready to cut your throat if need be

For the last time

I will let myself be vulnerable to others

For the last time will I trust so freely

And now I know that doesn't change me

It only changes my view of reality.

4 March 2005